Do I like him?

I didn't went for JYPE audition because I went for this.. Juste Debout event at Zouk.

That's the first time I went to Zouk, in the afternoon!

Hehe, went there just to watch dance competition, freaking dope!

Currently Im in the loft, My school's bunk.

Others are out for lunch and I'm alone in the room.

Wanting to let out my true feelings but I got no where to go.

I really wonder why I always want to go to him.

I know he's good looking. I've tried not to look at him so that my heartbeat will not increase.

I hate it because I scare I really like him.

It's confusing when your heartbeats increase because that person is good looking.

I scare that I will not be myself.

I scare that I like someone because of their looks.

I don't want. I want to like the person whole heartedly.

I feel a bit sad when he talked about other girls.

I feel happy when he smell like me, because he ask for shower gel and I passed him mine.

Always looking through the window hoping that he's there.

I like it when he bully me.

How I wish I would just fall into his arms accidentally. HAHAHAS

Ok, fat hope.

Just don't care about him and hope that he feels the same way which I dont think he would.

Just keep him in your heart.

Bye.

Updates in bulletin

• Went for EE talent
• Went for Titanic and Time Cartier exhibition
• Passed all my module for CT
• Went for EE com interview
• Went for EEmazing race
• Went for BBoy(Np new CCA)
• Working for 3 more days, the restaurant will be close
• JYPE audition in 3 more days.
• Tioman Trip

EE GOT TALENT

I went through the audition (:
Finals was not bad but I got the consolation price. HAHAS.
The other participants were good.
I'm glad that I joined. hehe

CAMP

I WON THE BEST FEMALE CAMPER! :D

OFF TO CAMP FOR 3 DAYS! :D

FUCKINGFUCKFUCKERS

WHERE GOT THIS KIND OF FAMILY?

I want them to know.. that if I die, they are the cost of it.

Maybe I will forgive them later but seriously, the feeling of caring for them and got scolded back is like freaking fucking irritating.

I think of running away from home.

I think of killing myself.

I think of jumping off the window.

When my bro and I were quarreling, My Mom just look straight into my eyes and shouted back.

She asked me to shut up. Not my brother.

Just because my voice is fucking sharp when I shout.

But am I the fucking wrong?

Fuck the both of you.

Both of them are the same! You adopted me is it? Why are you two behaving the same.

Why are you guys always making me feel helpless and angry at the same time?

I'm not going to treat them as food already.

They violated my heart.

I tried to keep my bro's stuff into the room from the Living room.

He think living room is his kitchen, dining table and his fucking room?

He fucking eat in the living room. He fucking throw his food around.

He fucking left his dirty clothes on the sofa.

He fucking put his gig on the sofa too.

He ask me to put them down. He pulled so the gig knocked into the corner of the sofa.

HE SHOUTED AT ME. WTF?!

HE FREAKING FUCKING SHOUTED AT ME.

HE FREAKING PULLED THE STUFF AND THE FUCKING GIG KNOCKED ON THE SOFA.

THE WAY HE LOOKED AT ME, AS IF IT'S BECAUSE I TOOK HIS STUFF AND I KNOCK THEM INTO THE SOFA. FUCK YOU.

I WONT FUCKING TOUCH YOUR STUFF. I WON'T FUCKING EAT OR USE YOUR STUFF EITHER SO HANDS OFF MY STUFF. IF NOT I WILL AXE UR HAND OFF AND FEED THE DOGS.

Next time, when my Mom is accused or smth bewtween the family. Don't blame me for scolding you too. I respect you but you don't respect me. Why should I even care? I know you give birth to me, yeah Thanks.

Ok, since they are like that. Try your best on your singing and dancing career! :D

Like that.. I can go without feeling anything! :D

Chalet

GOING TO PACK MY STUFF AND GO FOR NRA CHALET! :D

I hope I can make more friends.

Won't feel as awkward as before!